faith in a future

i've been going through a lot in the past few months. but its during times like this when you realise just how good God is. he has really brought people around me to encourage, keep me company even when i've been home and i've just cried and cried my eyes out. and the amazing thing is, i havent outwardly seeked people but they have actually emailed/messaged me to ask about me which is nice. even old china friends.

even this past month, i've seen 3 friends from melbourne here. and caught up online with a few others. so he is good to me.

this past week wanz came and i've known her for 9 yrs now and we talked about good old uni days and all the crazy stuff we've gone through... its been good because its bringing me closure. even being down in the south of china with friends has helped. all very very old friends i've known for a decade. looking over the past and seeing where my life has come from... i really feel that i have changed and i'm a completely different person. he has been shaping and changing me all this time and i'm still learning/being shaped.

so this weekend, i looked through pics and thought that i could feel a new chapter approaching although i want to hold tightly on the past... (and in many ways still taking one day at a time)... i am excited to see what he has in store for me in the future. although i dont know what to expect and i cant see so far ahead and grasp unto concrete hope and goals, i know and i have faith now that there is a future for me.